(exceptthemandtime)

How isolated can you be?

Before reality comes snap, crashing in around to wake you.
Maybe a week in the keys a new home and a new week finally jump started me
God knows it wasn't the bullshit job
or was it?
was it a new refreshed life with brand new friends?
Always for the people, new acquaintances could blossom and grow,
in ways one couldn't imagine or ignore
or was it I always had trouble letting go, getting too close to be commercial?
making some office full of fast food bureaucrats uncomfortable?
or was it an album full of gang vocals like Gordo always said he would make?
The addition and brothers?
A stage painted so it looked like a Strummers bonfire?
A stunningly beautiful new reason to live life to the fullest?
I once thought all the smart girls would end up with the stupid guys
I thought wrong
they would end up with mediocrely beautiful gentlemen
that they said with conviction were gorgeous
while some off shore banker part of me swore up and down that they were crazy
even if they were kind of right with a wink and swimmingly fabulous
someone to treat them kind and right and make up a new definition of a happy bride
(even if we have to wait for now)
for a fast forward button
that got you deep into life
passing all these pillars of salt
scribbling in a note book searching
only to look up in awe gazing like someone who had come at once to re behold the stars
realizing that the search was over and that they didn't need to look anymore
they will never look back
neither will I
living on the beaches
someday in the future seems like a reward enough
when someone really truly genuinely loves you
what really could you need?